I am stunned, and I had to share.......I just managed to get my ADSL line!!!!! After waiting for 2 years my provider called me and said it is now possible and today!!!! This is too much of a coincidence - WOW!
What an intensive 30 days this has been. I set out on what I
thought would be an easy experiment, and it turned out to be an adventure of
note! I started off by deciding to focus on things I wanted to manifest through
this month, but after the first week the diary no longer seemed to be about
what I can manifest with the Law of Attraction but rather how I react to the
whole idea of the law and it turned out to become a very internal experience.
Through these 30 days I have learnt so much about myself, my
reactions to my environment, my reactions to my own thoughts and emotions, and
have gained mountain loads of insight to who I really am.
That was the weirdest
part; I thought I knew who I was and where my shortcomings lay. I thought I was
this person whose glass is always half-full and that I am always focusing on
the positives in life. Ok, I must admit, I do believe that I try to find the
positive in each situation, but I wasn’t aware how my little whining sessions
where I complain about the parts of my life that disturb me have such a huge
impact on what I pull towards myself.
I feel that through this experience I have been able to
understand the law a little more, and have understood that it is necessary for
me to be totally focused on what I want to achieve, to not waiver from the
thought for a moment, not in an emotional way at least. To keep myself in the
firm belief that what I want is definitely on its way. To be grateful about
everything, and to feel grateful about everything.
To round things off, how did I go accomplishing the goals I
set out to accomplish?
Well: ADSL: I
still can’t seem to focus on pulling the internet into my home, I guess it will
materialize why at some later point.
Products: I sold
8 of the 10 which is an amazing success!
I eventually made around R1000 unexpected income which is fantastic.
Let’s not forget, I eventually was so busy with all my other
experiences through the month that I lost focus on what I was managing to
manifest, imagine had that not happened, where would I be standing then?
I would like to thank all of you for your support through
The second last day of my diary and I find myself reflecting
on what I have experienced thus far.
Today, I am feeling, calm, relaxed and full of life. I am
finding sleep a little difficult at the moment and my mind does not want to
come to peace at all!
I am focusing on all the things I love about my life and
looking forward to more of those occurring as they make me feel great.
I am so grateful to my loving family, who support me no
matter what. They often just shake their heads and smile when I come up with
new wacky schemes and ideas that I want to run with. I can always be sure that
they are on the bandstand to cheer me on in my latest whim, and to pick me up
when it maybe doesn’t go according to plan!
My wonderful friends who walk beside me on my path, always
motivating, never criticizing, how rich my life is!
It is such a wonderful feeling when at the end of another
hectic day, you can look back and feel loved and cared for, I wish that for all
of you out there!
Had a really nice weekend, didn’t do very much, but
sometimes that is also good.
I am feeling good about the rest of this month.
I am still learning how to focus my energy on believing that
all is possible and trying to discover how to let go of the ingrained ideas
that I have grown up with. Overcoming those thought-patterns is not as easy as
it seems and I am sure it will take more than 30 days to get rid of the idea
that there is always either just enough, or just a little less than that.
I grew up acknowledging the fact that there was always a
lack of everything, this is what I saw and what was impressed upon me through
my surroundings and day-to-day life.
I was taught to go without and to save for a rainy day, I am
sure most of my generation was taught the same concepts.
My husband and I have always endeavored to teach our
children that the sky is the limit and they can have whatever it is they
desire. I am sure it would be all the more believable if I would “Live” these
beliefs, and so that is what I am now setting out to do.
I feel that the best way to accomplish this goal is to
meditate every day, and have taken it upon myself to do just that from this day
I have finished my girls jerseys which I have been working on over the last 3 weeks. The incredible thing is this.....the last time I tried to knit a jersey it took me 4 1/2 years to complete and then it was a complete mess!
I am very happy with the outcome of these though :-D
Well, I had
a rather enjoyable day yesterday which is odd considering I had to go through
to the embassy for some documents. Then again it depends which embassy and a
first world embassy was such a nice change, so organised and to the point!
All in all
the last two days have been good, I haven’t done any focuasing on my intent,
but have rather been working on keeping dark and uninportant thoughts at bay,
and/or stopping them in their tracks.
to finish my jerseys that I have been workining on and they turned out quite
nicely so that gave me a wonderful feeling of success.
The goal for me is to fill my day with many small
successes and to go to bed feeling as if I have had a really successful day. I
managed to have one of those yesterday and am working on ending today in the
I am now in the last leg of the 30 day experiment, and am starting to look at the things I have learnt over this period for attracting that which I desire into my life.
So how have I been working towards manifesting abundance in my life:
1. Keeping myself in a place of joy - each time I feel myself slipping out of the feeling of joy, I focus on the things I love and try to keep my thoughts and emotions purely on them.
2. Meditating each day - ok, I must admit I haven't been very regular on this one, and the first two weeks I was meditating every day, now maybe every 2nd or 3rd day. I was finding that by meditating I could really FEEL my wishes manifesting and could focus on them that much better.
3. Being grateful about everything in my life: regardless of experience, situation or people and places. I want to be in a state of gratitude as often as I can.
4. By monitoring my thoughts and feelings: well I guess it is more my feelings, if I feel great, I try to observe why and to continue those feelings. If I feel bad, I try to get myself back into the "happy place"
5. Sharing and giving of myself where-ever I can: Not necessarily in a monetary fashion, but to be giving to all who need my help.
6. BELIEVING: I work towards keeping myself firmly in the belief that all my wants and desires are being manifested for me right now and I need to follow the signs to bring it into my life!
So today I am picking up on some strange frequencies (whether they are from inside of myself of external) and am feeling rather nervous and anxious.
I whipped out my copy of "Science of Getting Rich" and looked for something to help me focus. This is what I found:
"Give no anxious thought to possible disasters, obstacles, panics or unfavorable combinations of circumstances; There is time enough to meet such things when they present themselves before you in the immediate present, and you will find that every difficulty carries with it the wherewithal for its' overcoming."
How apt!! So I have taken a dose of Bach Rescue to try to get rid of this knot in my stomach and am going to focus on being positive, happy and grateful for the rest of today!
Today I want to touch on the subject of gratitude. I know I have mentioned it in previous diary entries, but I just want to emphasize the important role it plays when getting into the "ZONE" :-D
By constantly pulling yourself into a feeling of gratitude, you cannot go wrong on the emotional level. When you FEEL thankful you will find yourself on the right frequency to allow more things into your life that you can be thankful about.
I have been reviewing my life and my experiences I have been through so far and there are countless things that I can be grateful for. The things that stand out for me are: having the wonderful opportunity to go overseas and live there for so many years, it offered me different outlook on life, how to approach things from a different angle. Whilst I was there I was offered numerous opportunities to try out different occupations, live in different areas, appreciate long- lasting friendships and more.
My dear husband and my beautiful children who give me joy each and every day, and the rich friendships I have found whilst living back in South Africa. How can one not be grateful with such a rich life?
So my tip for today is when you aren't in the right place to manifest things that you are wanting (remember we are manifesting all the time, every thought that is connected to emotion manifests) try counting all the things you can be grateful for. But the trick is not to just count them down, but to re-experience each of the experiences as if it just happened, and to feel every grateful moment.
My girls are taking part in the local acting group and are putting on the show "Mary Poppins". They are so excited and have been loving every rehearsal.The best part is their homeschooled friends are all taking part, so they have been seeing a lot more of each other, which has been fantastic for them.
If any of you are local and would like to go and watch the show, here are the details.
Kids love these shows, so do consider it if you are in the area.
After finding out, how quickly I can manifest things into my reality by a simple thought attached to an emotion, I have spent yesterday and today, no so much monitoring my thoughts, as paying attention to which kind of thoughts I offer the most emotion to.
If they are thoughts that have been attached to the emotion of fear, or a negative frequency, I have stopped the thought right in its' tracks and replaced it with a thought that is pretty neutral or has the attachment of joy, happiness, love and the likes thereof.
I guess since I have been working with the law of attraction I have kind of been watching what I think, but after last weeks' lesson, obviously not well enough.
I thought I was a positive thinker, but I also have my whiney sessions and have taken it upon myself to no longer go there, to change my thoughts completely and to truly embrace the feeling of living in gratitude!
The book that will be the first to be read by my online book club will be the Four Agreements written by Don Miquel Ruiz.
To give those of you wanting to join a chance to get hold of a copy of the book, the online book club will officially open its' windows :-D on Monday 3rd October.
You can click on the book and follow the link to Book depository for the best price on this book.
We will have a discussion mailing group that will discuss chapter for chapter as we all head through the book.
If you are interested in taking part, please leave your comment and email me your details (Name, Email contact and the titles of 3 - 5 books that you would like to read) so that I can let you know all the details of joining the club.
I have had an amazing revelation: Everything that I thought was settling
in my reality from external sources, was not from the outside, but from my
internal sources and are all a result of weeks of my own manifesting.
Let me explain it this way. About 4 weeks ago, I was complaining about
my life, where I was and what I was doing, and continually kept repeating how I
wanted change, change to do as I want. To move away from the things I no longer
wanted in my life.
This week has been so difficult, because suddenly all these negative
things started happening to me, and they just seemed to accumulate and I
couldn’t understand why, why when I am focusing on manifesting my goals in my
life, do I suddenly have all this negative stuff come up.
A couple of days ago it became almost too much too bear, but once I
re-arranged my thoughts and the way I was doing things, everything once again
started to look up for me, and I stood once again at a point where I could
objectively look at what has been happening in my life and find out where the
source of these experiences is. What a surprise when I began to realise that
everything that has been happening to me is a product of my manifesting!!!
I have become accutely aware of the saying “Be careful what you wish
for, because you just might get it!”
I have realised that in my wishing for change, I failed to formulate
that as much as I wanted change, I wanted it for the greater good, and that I
also failed to spell out exactly how I wanted things to change, so the universe
delivered EXACTLY what I asked for, no more, no less! I got my change but in
the fastest, easiest way that the universe could deliver it, and at first I
mistook the hardships as someone elses intervention in my life……someone elses’
negative influences for lack of a better explanation, and all along I have been
the only one responsible for the chaos that has been reigning in my life over
the last week or so…….
But heres the crux, I didn’t actually formulate my wishes in as many
words as I FELT my wishes, does that make sense? I so badly wanted the change
that I must have been screaming it out to the universe in my emotional
frequencies. I had the emotional connection to the thought I was thinking and
was sending that out to the universe like a broken record, over and over again
and for weeks on end!!!
What a wake up call, if anything I am more in awe of the natural Law of
Attraction than ever before!
Shew, this has been a very trying week for me, not too much positive information and influences surrounding me.....I do feel that the current is on the up-swing now and I hope to find some direction and answers to my questions.
Haven't been able to focus on manifesting much as I feel it doesn't work as well if it is not from an area of wanting and more from an area of desperation.
Unfortunately that is where I find myself at the moment. I have been talking to my friends and family how if I had started this diary any other month of any other year, if the 30 days would have also been as trying, as confusing as desperate?
The situations surrounding me on this 30 day journey are definitely not the usual days I deal with, so why now so trying? This will definitely be an experiment I will remember. It is teaching me so much about myself and about the frequencies I am producing and giving off, and those I find I am surrounding myself with.
I apologize if these entries have gone off at a bit of a tangent in regards to the Law of Attraction. I promised myself I would continue writing, everyday, regardless of what was experienced, so this is the outcome. It will be very interesting to read Day 30s' entry if I do say so myself!
Today is one of those days again. The kind of day where you can feel the shift happening in mankind. It makes me nervous, sometimes in a good way, but you can definitely feel the confusion, frustration and anxiety. Does anybody else feel it?
I know this has nothing to do with the Law of Attraction, but I did feel I should mention it.....keeps me sane :-D
Last night I held my Vaccine talk at a childbirth group, I am always aware how I shock the poor parents-to-be, but I would have appreciated it, had someone informed me about these poisons before I had given birth, we grew up not even knowing there was a negative side to vaccines, it was just simply something that was done!
So anyway, I feel that I was successful at my talk. I want to get the message across, and if only one person starts to ask questions, which they did, i feel that it was worth it. Lets' face it, it is healthy and important, because it makes them stronger parents, and all parents know how easy it is to be manipulated after the birth of your first child, that "Conscience Card" that gets pulled on us whenever and where ever people think they need to force us into making a decision that is "Better" (convenient for them) for our child.
To cut a long story a bit shorter, I went home feeling successful and that counts loads when contemplating how to bring the manifestation of your wants and desires into your life by focusing on the small successes we create!
I don't know if all of you out there also experience this, but whilst focusing on manifesting all I desire, it always seems to go well for a two week spell and then I always experience this dip in positiveness, am totally unfocused and start to think that it is not working - Contradicting all that I have been shown!! I know that it has been working, and thankfully, because I have been blogging about it, I have black and white proof of it!!
So yesterday I found myself in those doldrums and couldn't have written too much to uphold my belief that all is possible with the Law of attraction. I gave myself a stern talking to last night and have pulled myself back out of the pit of destruction and am ready to focus on my goals once more.
The strange thing about this experiment it that it in itself seems to be the result of previous manifestations. That I had to eventually end up here and write about my experiences.......
So today I am bright-eyed and bushy-tailed and refuse to let anything deter me in being positive about my future and complete in the belief that I can manifest all I desire!!!
Before I sign off for the day, I would like to take a moment and thank all of you who are keeping updated with my diary, I would love to hear from those of you who have had similar experiences or who have something to add.
We are going through medieval history at the present moment and my girls have spent the last three weeks assembling their paper castles with my husband. Jasmins' is finished and Kaylas' is just about. Take a look, I am so proud of them.....
I haven’t had the opportunity to upload my diary the last two days, so I will be posting both of them today…….so you get a Double Bill so to speak!
Well, the last two days have been a bit hard to cope with and as such it is possibly better that I am only posting the diary entries today. I have been trying to cope with the negative influences that hang over me and have been trying to understand how I could have attracted these. Are these perhaps the attractions from my past, or are they instantaneous manifestations to my mood and emotions?
The question arises “Was it the egg or the chicken?” I feel that my mood and emotions are direct results of the influences, but perhaps the influences are surrounding me because in my inner thoughts I was telling myself that I didn’t want to have to deal with those kind of people, so maybe I created the issues at hand because I asked for them?
Hmmmm, these revelations are always a bit to chew through, but they do guide you on to the right path to manifest only the things you want.
As I have been working with the Law, I have come to notice how things manifest from the smallest, simplest thoughts, and as always the thoughts always have had emotion attached to them.
Just like the thought I had about not wanting to be surrounded by negative people and/or situations, it had an attachment of absolute dread which is closely related to fear on the frequency scale, so all in all not a good vibration to give out!
Ok, so now I have more tools to help me move forward. A good meditation session and a relaxing weekend should put things back into perspective!